When luxury is 3 walls, cement. Too high to reach, too sheer to climb Waist high rail with a metal fence Assuring you don’t, What? Jump Fly Maybe now I understand.
When release is paper you can’t see Sitting in the down- pour with the dark, wishing you had one person. One soul there, In your space that you share
Two others unconnected. Friendly But so **** distant, washing sheets in desperate attempts to quell all that leaking in your stomach. In your throat In your mind Twisting deeper every night The uncertainty, the **** sinking in your gut And you can’t even make it prose.
Playing god Playing maker Playing yourself Or this self Who is, Or is not The person you are, Or might be.
Anchorless Without one to soothe, one to help you Remember
That yes I am. Yes, there are people Who would choose me Over you At any time. You don’t even think, because you don’t know if it’s true anymore And how could anyone care Enough about you To care To care To care
About what?
The words steal themselves from you. Your mind is blank You play at poet Play at person And you can’t get either right But in the end Does it matter If no one knows you well enough To see the façade fall