Why do I do this to myself?
I read it
I knew what it consisted of and yet I still read it
I've known about it for awhile
But, today it's like I needed to read it
My stomach has never been so tense nor has it had feelings that weighed so heavy inside
Why do I feel this way?
Why does it even matter?
In the end,
I needed to knock some sense into my own head
My thoughts were going to far, they were becoming out of control
In a way, it helped me