I hate that moment where
all of a sudden, sadness
hits you like a ton of bricks --
envelopes itself around
you like a cocoon
until it's so tight
you can't get out

It starts to smother you,
drown you,
fill you with thoughts
and images you tried
so hard to forget

If it gets bad enough,
the thoughts will taunt
you until you want to
claw at your flesh
and rip your hair out
one by one

and that is the worst
sadness of all --
one that happens
when it's least welcomed
for no reason at all

(a.l.m)