the light seeped through the window and i lay awake with my head on your chest i watched as the sun rose and cast shadows along the structure of your face i'd run my fingers along the edge of your cheek bone and listen as you mumbled sweet nothings in your sleep
sometimes i wondered what secrets you kept in the hallows of your skull so i'd play with your hair and attempt to sneak my way into the life you'd locked away sometimes i wondered if those secrets were the reason you became so cynical and if those secrets were the reason you no longer talked to your father
the sun rose higher and played tricks on your arms the arms you'd covered in purple and blue bruises some days i wanted to reach into your skin and pull those blood vessels closed
eventually you'd wake and see me staring again staring at your questionable eyes blue, green, brown? a combination of all three
and the sun would be high in the sky shinning through our window creating mirages all over the lavender room that matched the spots on your skin you'd smile and pull me close because your only reaction was to love love someone else, but not yourself