I could be better,
But I am better
Than it could be
That's enough for me

For the moment being
A moment I hold close
I don't want to let go
But I'm stuck in comatose  

I refuse to face reality
I run and hide
Because around ever corner
I see what I don't want to inside

I see the monster
I see the ghoul
I see a young girl
Who broke all her rules

And at the end of the day
I cant change my ways
Repetition is a curse
Repeating things in a haze

My head has become
Detrimental to my health
My own enemy
She steals my happiness with stealth

This monster that I've become
Is not what I want to be
I'm trying hard to
Fix my destiny

But the clock is ticking
My precious time trickling away
Slipping through the hands
Who made me this way

So I guess this is
My farewell note
I'm going to **** my monster
This is the last letter she wrote