the mood, set by cheap christmas lights, is somber. the sun will rise soon, saying goodbye to another sleepless night filled with half-hearted attempts at productivity.
words blare into ears through tiny buds and wires. the darkness, now, feels permanent. this is the way i like it: dark and somber.
when the sun rises obligations and responsibilities resume. apathy consumes me fills me to the core.
for now, out the window, little dots of light illuminate few details in the blackness. only outlines of leafless trees are seen highlighted by squares of brightness from windows.
i prefer the way the darkness feels it is not unfriendly as it wraps me up in its blanket of indigo
lovingly, it caresses me, holding me tight as I sit, gazing outside.
the mood, set by cheap christmas lights, is confused. what i want is undeterminable. but, in the dark it does not matter.
daylight comes soon and with it all of my nightmares.