last night was good
but also somehow bad
the same pounding headaches
and anonymous hatred
and cruel messages
it gave me pain
a lot of it too
i wish things were simple
and that i was just little ol' me

this is not amusing anymore
i cannot l.o.l no more
this has gone too far
i'm trapped in fear

can't be anywhere
without fear of
strangers lurking
makes me sick
to my stomach
i can feel my insides
twisting and turning

i want to feel secure again
no more pain
no more anxiety
no more watching
over my shoulders
and no more
invasion of privacy

i want to be given
a bit of respect
but creeps
freak me out
now i'm drowning
in a river of sadness
and loss of sense

it's been years
of constant abuse
stop targeting me
you're making me
want to sleep
forever
and
ever