10.1.25 [19:37] maybe dying i thought is like falling asleep i imagined the pain would all be gone and i wouldn't think i wouldn't think about you i wouldn't miss you the way i do i would be nothing in a second
absolutely nothing compared to the world i would be dead and gone and i would be okay
but it wasn't like that i screamed and there was no one to hold me or hold my hands so i wouldn't hurt myself you weren't there, that was why i died