i do get sad, just like everyone else, i do get mad, & i do get glad. the three basic emotions, i seem to rotate. it interferes with my creativity. i start sounding like a broken record, & i could almost sense the eyes rolling back, "here she goes again, with all that!" it's a notion i get. it's my insecurity, the little voice in my head that tells me, "you are not good enough for poetry!"
One of the symptoms of BPD I struggle the most with is, my distorted self-image. I get so insecure still trying to "fit in," and I also feel a slight cringe when I do because I am 30 years old; I feel stuck having a teenager mentality. I want to expand my creativity. (maybe i am helping others by just writting whatever comes to mind)