I'm just really mad.
Really really mad.
I bet you think your funny
making me boil
I bet you think it's helping
trapping my feelings inside
all I want is your approval
I know it won't happen
all I want is your faith
that I won't be that dumb
you've always said I
could do what ever my heart desires
well my heart desires her
and your holding me back
I hope that you don't know
and your mad about something else
I don't want to go through hell
like the last time.
this time it's different
she isn't just a phase
I've thought this out long and hard
and in my heart I know
what I feel is real
and all I want is for you
to understand,
let me talk
I don't think I want to  be religious
if this is how it feels
I now know what outcasts are
and I feel it every minute
I honestly can't think of you
with out it hurting so bad
all I want is my mother back
I don't want to hurt anymore
I deserve to be happy
I deserve a bit of freedom
I know you'll never like it
but eventually you'll
have to get over that.
I wish I could tell you my feelings
and everything I've ever gone through
maybe if I could try this
I'd know if its true.
I question my faith every day
and usually hate the result
Maybe I don't want to go to church
every sunday
Every time I hate myself
because of what is preached
every time I shake in my seat
trying to find peace
I just wish I could tell you
and this wouldn't have to be a secret
maybe one day it'll happen
maybe I won't be so mad.