Anguish
Despair
Agony

Words that don't mean enough
Arent deep enough
Not deep enough
Scream while
You
BLEED

Destroy the room
Instead of
INSIDE OF ME

Pain that comes in a flash
Won't pass
Screaming
And crying
And begging to just
Be dying

But you don't grasp it
You don't grasp me

I slip away
Fall away into
A perishable mist
Fading
Falling
SCREAMING
Calling

See me
Understand me
Care for me

DON'T MAKE ME BEG
DON'T MEAKE ME CLAW
DON'T MAKE ME SCREAM
DON'T MAKE ME ONCE AGAIN
GO UNSEEN

Pain that comes in a flash
Won't pass
Screaming
And crying
And begging to just
Be dying

Going to happen again
Terrified
Unable to sleep
Unable to eat

Don't know whats causing
This pain
This damage
In my body

Avoid the food that it could be
Avoid the sleep because you only
Ever wake up to the anguish
Never comes on gradually after
You wake
No sleep
No pain
No food
No agony

Wanting anything but feeling
That pain again

A plan to be dying
The next time it has me
Screaming and crying

Traumatized beyond belief
Yet you all brush it off
And brush it aside with me

Only thoughts in my head
Is remembering the pain
The screaming
The crying
The begging that wouldn't leave my breath
The movement to grap that cops gun
Not leaving my body
The urge to lunge for all the medicines
Infront of me
But all I can do is
SCREAM
CRY
BEG INTERNALLY

To die