I had some vivid glimpses, though they’re far away,
Maybe I’ve lived enough, but this heart still aches like yesterday.
The life I lived, the grief I felt
I feel like a dead corpse that forgot to decay.

But the feelings kept rotting,
My soul was stinking,
My heart crawled with maggots,
And my insides were bloating.

Now I am at deathbed,
Now I want to live again.
But as soon as the past hits me,
I wonder, was I really living back then?

Oh my eyes now it’s time to rest.
We kept looking for hope,
But only tears you shed.
Shattered words don’t give the truth,
Only hollow lies, hiding in you.

The unsaid words I regret
Now backfire like tearing bullets.
I didn’t live truly
While my breath was warm.
But please, let me rest
Now, in my peaceful home.