My ancestors already prayed for me before I arrived

I was predestined for this work

I welcome the peace that accompanies the realization

May others in my lineage continue the inner work of feeling their emotions

Moving what I could and could not do in my lifetime

May they honor my progress and my limitations simultaneously

May they continue to either pick up the cross or rest and watch others down the line carry it instead

Regardless

I have no expectation of what movement should be like

I'm just at peace with being the answered prayer

I feel
I move
I regress
I plateau
I wail
I rest
I repeat