maybe if i,
go out into the world
searching through
a sea of eyes
hoping yours will meet mine
you will appear?

maybe if i
close my eyes
squint them tight
and then open,
you will appear?

maybe if i
check my chart
or check the stars
to see what is coming,
you will appear?

maybe if i
take a look at the cards
shuffle through my decks
what jumps out?
what can i understand?
when will you appear?

maybe if i
get on my knees
put my hands together
hold them tight
speak a few words to my God,
you will appear?

maybe
in my mind’s eye
if i imagine
you and i
maybe
just maybe
you will come to life?
you will appear?

i’m staring at
an empty void
looking at a blank wall
laying in an empty bed
holding a quiet phone
waiting for you to appear.

now i’m not so sure.
i’ve done it all.
everything i can try.
i don’t know what to do.
hard to believe you’ll show now…
will you ever appear?