i've given birth to a inhumane creature breathing in mustard gas, breathing out fire touching everything with hands like lightning a wilted flower that surrendered to the deep cold shredding hearts like paper with an unshakable anger smelling fear in you, never letting myself get near you delicate and proud, like a rose, you glisten and i rot how can you fix something that's almost irreversible how do you reverse a cycle that's been going for months i'm blending into the wall of the past regrets you created masses of failures you've been through and threw away but i never left, i always kept my promise to you i have to lay your face to rest to rest to rest to rest like a recording, playing over and over like it's taunting me like a ghost that's been locked away, ready for the haunting but i can't do it, dreams interrupt and ravage my troubled mind desolate in my own mind, and i'm sleeping in this prison ward harvest the love from my heart and unshackle my bones from this room i've illuminated in my faith and rose above the fervent grudge i've held detritus strikes at the dawn, and turns the moon into a cold glare and i know i stare but you were the first beautiful thing i ever had and i know you don't like me, but can't you stare back and see the beauty i'm not the monster you believe i am