Im tired of the cycle
Im tired of how easily giving into it is

Im tired of the tremendous effort ive done.
Yet there was no progress done.
There was no use of it. In a glimpse it was all gone

All gone it even disappeared
All gone and darkness appeared

Gone down the drain it all went .
They say live ur life , u will miss out!!
Miss out? Miss out on what?
Miss out on Pain?  Miss out on being Drained? Miss out on being Stuck in pitch black view?
In the darkness i drew

A tiny beam of light pulled me out
But it turned what almost became Gray  innto Vantablack
And just like that i was back

I was back to where i started
The exact same pain that came when dating started

I wish this beam of light never came
I wish i never met it
I wish i never knew it
I wish i stayed away
I wish it never begun

I tried  and I tried
I promise inside i died

But they say what is life with no pain.
But is it really worth it ?
when ur name becomes pain?

-Not A Poet - Just Struggling