It's like
I'm at the bottom
of a frozen lake
with everyone else at the top
walking happily on the ice
while I'm below them
tangled in
all these dead branches
which are my thoughts
unable to breathe
the water surrounding me
freezing me
so all I feel
is numbness
preventing me from trying
from breaking free
and swimming to the top
to where there's safety
freedom
from this pain
where I can find someone
to warm my soul
bring it
back to life again
to help me
to forget
forget the coldness
that once enclosed me
stopped me from living
breathing happiness.