we've been through so much,
and i thought i was ready to lose you...
but now that it's really over i miss you more than ever.
our relationship was toxic but your presence was the only thing that comforted me.
i used to pray for you to change and to be better for me but i know deep down you won't that's why i had to leave you alone.
you begged me to stay but i looked away.
i regret my decision more right now,
but i know we're not meant to be and that's the ugly truth.
i'm angry at myself because i don't hold any love for you,
just memories of you,
that's why it all feels so heavy right now.
i know one day you will move on and be with someone who you're willing to change for.
i just hope i'm not there to witness it.