you love the idea of me.

you don't love the girl behind the makeup, the cute skirt, the laughs
the girl who panics too much
the girl who questions her worth every single day
the girl whose tears have dried up from crying too long
the girl who worries too much about what other people think
the girl filled with guilt but still lies to the people she loves
the girl who lies to herself about her capacity to love others
the girl confused about who she is and who she wants to be
and im sure as hell you won't love the girl
when you see all the flaws she's kept hidden
because she's afraid people will leave her again.

so don't tell her to fall for you -
don't tell her you love her
until you've seen this girl.