I want to vanish not like a whisper but like a wound that healed without leaving a scar
To slip between moments so quietly even time forgets it once knew my name
No eulogies no echoes no unfinished songs in someone’s heart
I want to vanish Not just disappear... But evaporate Quietly Completely Without a trace Without a name Without even a memory to whisper "I was here"
I want to forget myself so perfectly That even I Don’t remember I ever wanted to forget No lingering pain No fading laughter No aching nostalgia curled in old corners of my chest
I crave the blankness Not death.... but the freedom of never having been
No shadows of "almost" No scent of "before" No mirrors reminding me I once was more No yesterday No could-have-beens No photographs of people I used to be
I want the kind of stillness That doesn’t ask questions No "what happened?" No "why haven't you got married?" No "who hurt you?" No "are you okay?" Because in oblivion.... There are no answers Only absence
I don’t want healing I don’t want closure I want nothing Nothing to carry Nothing to crave No flames inside Not even ashes
So I beg you please Let me un-be Let the stars forget I ever watched them Let the winds forget how I once wept into them Let every thought of me dissolve Like breath on a cold windowpane Here.... then gone Gone.... then never
I want to Vanish Not lost because... lost things can be found But unmade Unwritten Unremembered
Let even me forget the shape of my sorrow Let even me forget the texture of joy Strip me of stories, of my scars of "why”
Let me dissolve into silence so complete it doesn’t even echo
I'd even prefer to be Not the silence in the room But the space before the room ever was Not a shadow fading But the light that never cast it
I want to go where even souls dont go Where not even God says "Return"