Why you standing over there?
out of reach, not out of sight
I don't want you to walk
out of that door now
I want you here, feeling you
breathing down my neck

I'm missing you, are you missing
me?
does your heart beat to the same
sound that mine, pulsates every
moment I see your face

Let me close that door so that
every thought of you shuts
banged closed
dissipates in space

Holding myself faithful can you
hear me whisper
your name?
in my sleep I am talking
to you
again
can you see me when your
eyes are closed?
the way I see you, day in
day out

Tiny steps vibrate through
my mind
holding your voice in my head
I hear you
in those dreams
they may be crazy
untrue
yet they keep me breathing
oxygen for
these lungs
catching breath

I'm staying up late
drinking again
all because
I probably
miss you.

Writing my heart out
in ways inarticulate
because these feelings
as hard as I fight
won't leave me
locked within
even the written word
with its choice of millions
are not enough
for what I feel
for you
and the love, I have.

© Sia Jane