I think too much
When the darkness comes.
My mind keeps racing
Thoughts are swirling.
Round and round inside my head
This all happens when the darkness comes.

I deserve all the pain,
The cutting, the bleeding.
I deserve all the hatred
The lies, the blaming.
I deserve every heartache
I deserve the bitter taste of loneliness.

"You're fat and ugly"
"You're a ***** and a slab"
"You're never good enough,
So go die in hell"
"Nobody cares about you're tears"
These voices are haunting.

When I'm in a dark place
I lose who I am.
It's a different girl completely
I'm done with all the pretending.
I'm a selfish ***** with no one
I deserve to suffer and die.

I take a final step
I hold my breath and count
I'm going to take the leap
It's finally the end.
My mind will be put at rest
And I can finally sleep.