but each day: i can conquer with myself and experience the day the rest of the world the res extensa world with pitfalls of schizophrenia and the lackey bilingual lead me AI to where we talked: i am making digital 21st century notes and there's no museum to house these artefacts i'll be moving to Hawaii and i'm letting people know that is that and that i have been to New York and didn't find Whitman or Lorca but i found the Polish Embassy and i found the Chelsea Hotel and i was the Little Polishman in New York without a sting i was a ****** in New York i was no longer a ****** in London and i'd give New York a second chance if i had more money but i had all the money in the world i just didn't see new york in the night big cities require you to see the daytime and the nighttime the real city awakes after night during the day you say you saw new york but you didn't: i baby... i saw the new york you want me to glitz with i saw the 1970s grit i was there smoking i was there i don't see the mirror of a Night Manhattan: a Night Manhattan is a cocktail: sparrows and the fox come... for the children... let the children believe let me tell you i left one glass of wine on the table like the Catholic i am... i left one cup of wine on the table on the table: me! me! me! drink it! i'll have come water from the camel's spit please across the deserts and fortitudes of seas i came to find all the men and i brought all the men together and where they feast at the birth with a homelessman at the table comes the dinner table clean like a ghost because a ghost i see and then comes the body or is that in reserve? upon the resurrection which is why this moment in time is so splen did from the clock orientation time: i drift into dream...
rememeber: the world will only allow so much of it before you adventure into Egypt and the Cities Cairo and Alexandria like England drifting parallel to other islands i say New York is like Alexandria the cosmopolitan adventurer while the stalemate last in London and Cairo i was thinking about the underground and in my head i degraded New York's and took to the war of the rats in Moscow and London i had no questions asked in Paris-Berlin-Warsaw...
i took the route to New York via the trains from London: to London: flying over Paris Berlin Warsaw PBW... no sooner will this reality fade and that drink of water will be a reward unto Isah... and the two brothers and the right of birth some biological ancient arithmetic..
i can keep my demons but first the cats of the household have to fall asleep: i'm rereading Dada poetry and i'm thinking it wouldn't be easier rereading Ulysses instead tackling Proust and i can't say i'm a pampered fool but like ****** and KIETSCH or is tht KIEV i postpone i'm thinking of going elsewhere because another drink will not solve this debacle when i was falling asleep about the classical .fm top 300 and that's a 3 x 3 300 i'm thinking the three word clue the road beyond the word and that is a crown bite the bullet and cravat i ask in time-spatial of myself but in time-temporal i do find journalistic cannibalism abhorring and that's the critique of the English The Time versus the Thrusday edition of the New York Times... and i love American liberalism... it's classical liberalism it is conservative-liberalism... it is water i drank from under the pillow of what *** is given me a chance perhaps i faded away after the resurrection and settled down an happily lived a life according to Joseph the Parrot Merchant of Death: Mary the ****** the Widower Joseph... Christ: whoever gets past the Age 33.
one hour until curfew so the girl plays the games hard and into the night trying to figure you out and this teenage girl is figuring you out and i think that's the darkness and the light and the arch of kingship i behold when i deem such days hailed unto Ave Spri FONZ... AVE VER! perhaps the words you utter when you can stroke a cat and shyly ask the night to say for you what you think: res cogitans trapped in the res extensa and finding the pre deus cogito only later so many people come with their cogito deus pro these words my god said so my other words said these words my god said so religion is like politics is a game of child and a game of play rather than a game of solve play isn't solve although like the English definite article play is the indefinite article where: solve is the definite article and all this in the arithmetic of Descartes it is geometry in motion a playbox of sorts i'm working on it with my daughter i am alligning minds she is insomniac and i have bubbles in my face... a sinner i ate too much bortsch too much all that fermenting rhye rye is giving me the farts and it's agony of the farts need to dilute said food with ***** alas no ***** just some cider enough cider i think trebble that into us alone you no longer reading self-help books about raising a child i'm wishing for the day when you stop reading self-help books about raising a child have but one child in your existence and that being your ego before the altars of cogito sonos deus and algos and i don't know but it was easier to take the blood and count a meter in stride if i could just escape that thought that as much a child of progeny in my mind and in your mind there became a curation of the womb as St Basillica... i do wonder how much German i could extract from the translation of Master and Margarita i think i will send her a copy of MAster and Margerita in English and in German why just stop at one language find which language is easier perhaps you need to branch out into German rather than parrot Spanish... i should know because i should have been taught German in my high school rather than French or Spanish: perhaps... but this one song is on repeat and i just remember falling asleep last night thinking about: so when we get to the speed of gravity: what is the mechanism of slowing down to our speed... oh shitQ! what is our speed... if we get to the speed of light how do we get back to the speed we're currently speeding on? is it the speed of light? is it the speed of... what?! the **** are we talking about when talking about the speed of light?! and what are we talking about speed right now?! we get to the speed of light and then what? where is the break?! the break! the ******* break! how do we get back into orbit with Earth and at what speed is Earth at relative or not ******* relative to the speed of light?!
- and that's Ola Gjeilo: Gorrilaz: Night on repeat.. first song... and i think about Liszt and Chopin the virtuosos trying to escape the mind of the composer like Wager the Chopin waging war against the composers... but then in the age of diminished mathematics in symphony from Bach think about the Virtuosos of the Piano then think of either Satie or Debussy and they were the rhythm pianists while you had the soloist pianists like Liszt etc and that's like almost a rock band but instead of a drummer you would have... the brass the jazz perhaps the strings of violins or the woodwinds
cello cello chee... the long and a' winding road from rubber bicycle wheels to hoofs to something magical if you still have it like a saddled carpet with a camel's grin because the curfew is still coming to one hour prior and i'm already in bed brushed up and just wanting to talk *** isn't a routine sometimes we have it sometimes i don't know: we talk about it bombard each other with sextxts in our mind of the sharing of the potency of the dualistic ***: and all opposites: two individuals sharing a commonality where at least polar opposites can grow apart and apart together merge and dwindle sort of coexist a sharing of the banality of seeing infinites when the finite might suffice...