You were incredibly unfair, unjust, and rude to me.
Especially when I needed you the most.
But still I agreed
Still
I apologized
Still through every hurt you gave me I begged for you to stay
With big dreams
Of working on ourselves
And still bettering each other
Still you continued to show me
How very little I meant to you
Still I apologized
Still I stayed
You dropped off completely when you knew
Abandonment
Was a fear
Discarded everything
And then told me I was too much
Still I agreed
Still I apologized
I never asked to be like this...
The one time I give you your energy back you say
'You expect me to ever want to talk to you again after you said you want nothing to do with me?'
Those weren't my words
Still I agreed
Still I apologized
Still I hoped that it would make you miss me
But those were
'Big assumptions'
I put real effort into us
And expected none in return
Still I apologized
You stabbed me over and over
And didn't expect me to say
Oh.. that's uncomfortable
But I did
Then
Still I apologized
I see what my truth is
Why am I still clinging to you
Why do I still apologize
When you can't even look at me anymore.