I don't want to walk around aimlessly or 𝘭𝘦𝘨𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘭𝘺 with you in public, especially where people can see me. I want to be virile and feminine and masculine and rakish and impish. I want to sew buttons on your skirt and kiss your sister as a joke and then gloat. I want to steal a boat and take her to Mexicali without anybody finding out about it and have normal babies like I was taught. It's not much but it's all I got.