You've gone through a lot that much is true. You've attempted to end your life the outcome never as you wanted. But soon enough you'll appreciate life and the joys of being alive. The road to recovery is a tough and long one but it's one you're willing to take. You haven't self-harmed in over 80 days I know you can't fathom that. Self-harm was your lifeline in the awful house you lived in. Yes, past tense, lived in you escaped that hell of a house. Your siblings have not but they were always favored more. You don't have many friends but the ones you do are amazing. Sadly, those friends live far away but when you see them, it's like you were never apart. You still struggle with mental health but you're getting better and stronger. Life is more enjoyable now even though we never wanted to be alive this long. Maybe it's a good thing I'm still alive. - Liam