Broke my back and tore my heart out
and threw it still beating to the birds

why the hell would i want to feel anything

i hate to see you happy
and hated myself for wanting to move on

you drown those sorrows with life
i drown mine with stupid decisions and alcohol
poison the body to ease the mind
killing off the brain cells that disagreed
.3 one week, .32 the next
lifes easier when im not myself
i can lie in their beds comfortably
hold them in my arms and not care about you

sad to say its finally working
i never said i love you because i couldn't mean it
and to tell the honest truth I never would have
stay hung up on me, let me fill your mind
because you will never fill mine

I spit tar and bleed black
my ******* smile is for them
my dead eyes follow their curves not yours
my broken hands caress those bodies that fill my bed

look for another like me
then you will finally see that you'll never find him
because anyone you could choose will always be better then me