So many people out there
Think that they know me
Truth is you can't see
The secrets inside of me.
So many tears I hide
Screaming for something more.
I can't let them free
Because of what others think of me.

I've got to try and run away.
Let these things disappear.
I'll fade away into nothingness
Let it all wash me away.
I'm too afraid to fight it off
To afraid to speak.
But I know it's getting closer
To the end that I may face.

Food is like a nightmare
A scary reality.
The thoughts of ever eating
Haunt each day I like e.
I have a deep dark secret
The walls I've built to hide.
I cannot speak,I cannot say
The reason that I cry.

Talking is now my enemy
I've lost the ones who cared.
My head is spinning in circles.
I know no one is there.
I'm broken down inside
Left to shed these many tears.
I want to end everything
But I can't open my mouth.

I've pushed them all away.
I know the truth about me.
I'm too ignorant, a *****, an idiot,
Worthless, a failure and weak.
There is no point to carrying on.
There is no point to life.
I don't know what I can do....

I'm lost on these dark shadows.
I have no escape from this.
It's dark and cold.
I'm so alone.
But I'm the reason
You have all fled.