i am forever scared to fall asleep.
for what if i dream of you?
my mind fills with our old memories
“what ifs” fill my head
what IF things were different
what IF you had changed
what IF i had stopped caring
i can’t sleep for what if i never dream of you
i am horrified with that thought, with the
old memories that fill those dreams,
i lie awake hoping that
it is reality I’m dreaming of