Oct 2013
Relapses* are ****
but the pain
brings *relief
I'm a true
*******
I'm not saying
that relapses are good
I'm just saying
the pain drowns
all the bad
I lose myself
in order to feel
I'm not fully aware or conscious
but the pain makes me feel whole
Happiness always leaves
but the pain remains
and it makes me feel
so much more less alone
Sadness is not a choice
although sometimes
it's all we possess
when life gets rough
Misery is not beautiful
or in any way nice
but I am so used to it
it's become a part of my daily life
I have tried to separate myself
from this terrible state of mind
but it's too late for me to fix this
**the old me has been left behind
but the pain
brings *relief
I'm a true
*******
I'm not saying
that relapses are good
I'm just saying
the pain drowns
all the bad
I lose myself
in order to feel
I'm not fully aware or conscious
but the pain makes me feel whole
Happiness always leaves
but the pain remains
and it makes me feel
so much more less alone
Sadness is not a choice
although sometimes
it's all we possess
when life gets rough
Misery is not beautiful
or in any way nice
but I am so used to it
it's become a part of my daily life
I have tried to separate myself
from this terrible state of mind
but it's too late for me to fix this
**the old me has been left behind
© Natali Veronica 2013.
