A simple cloth defined as a ghost.
I am heard from the occurrence in the waves.
The shadow that foreshadows my intuition.
What should I say?
I’m confused if I mean anything.
A human being or someone in the darkness.
I feel like I’m walking alone in the sand taking in the dust and the rain.
I almost doubt myself and my surroundings.

I wanted to go back home, but my soul stayed here.
I am used to it, but never as used to it as I know.
You thought you knew me and my life, but you only lived in it.
You lived in it and sunk once you uncovered me in deeper complexities.
I don’t think one realizes how safe I feel, but once I leave I feel no longer a human of myself.
Am I a human?
Once was a human, but turned into a void in the world.

A hole in my heartbreak handles the strokes painted on the wall and the paint I threw.
I didn’t throw it though I left it and someone framed me.
Became me and told me I wasn’t worth your time.
I didn’t know my thoughts mattered to you, I thought I didn’t matter anyways.
Not actively thinking like that with a timer in my head, but you reminded me to dig deeper.

Those words are the color to my black and white area of ****** hearts hit and flicked on the wall.
They told me I wasn’t worth your energy and time.
Told me I was different and sometimes you don’t know me.
Sometimes I barely know you, yet I attach to you.
How do I unattach myself and let go?
Is this normal?
Is it?

It doesn’t feel like that.
I was just stuck inside of my mind.
An all-black figure on the sidelines chasing you.
Now I’m looking at someone else, but I didn’t mean to be dramatic.
How to be what I was going to be when I did feel the emotions.
I felt positive energy.
I can’t easily put my feelings into words.

Yet I feel so held back on what I choose.
Do my choices matter to you?
My feelings matter to you?
My thoughts matter to you?
My heart matters to you?
Did it ever?
Did I ever feel something?
Was I ever okay?

I wish I was..
I wish I was.
If I meant anything to you..
I appreciate it..
The type of thing that is hard to bare my soul.
Bare that your kindness makes me question if I felt like this..
Your kindness makes me feel different..
what’s even different..