I not so secretly
think that most people
I’ve met,
but especially the ones
I’m close to are
planning to hurt me.
These thoughts slip
into my brain
where I’ve read
deep between the lines
of a text and suddenly
he meant to send that
to the other girl
and he’s only saying
he’s sick to get out of seeing me
so he can see her for Valentines Day.

I have to remind
myself that it’s a lie,
say stop stop stop.
And try to forget
this fake scenario that
feels so real.