what it was like to be loved by you
was like knowing the sun would set,
but still staying out longer than i should,
basking in the warmth while i had it.
i treasured every moment,
even when the end was always there,
just beyond the horizon.
i knew it would fade,
but that didn’t stop me from wishing,
hoping it would never end.

in those quiet moments,
when it was just us,
i felt seen, truly seen,
like all the parts of me that were hidden
could finally breathe.
but in that light, i began to believe
i had to be something more,
to become someone else.
and so i did,
in ways that hurt,
really hurt,
just to feel like i deserved you.

there’s something almost bittersweet
about knowing that this love will fade,
but holding onto it even more,
praying it wouldn’t end,
never end.