you pick up the pen and paper you gently write 'dear mother dear father'
on the paper telling them why. why you had to leave why you couldn't do it you pick up the bottle you think 'just one more letter' you pick back up the pan and paper writing 'dear best friend' telling her/him how sorry you are words spill out on the paper you write so many letters you stare at them thinking of how many people will miss you how many people will cry that night you ripped up the papers and threw them away if you have letters you have reasons.
you see though I only would write 5 letters. I dont think they will cry.