My heavy arms lifts and lands on the empty space in my bed

My finger tips left cold without your warm skin to connect with

Bloodshot eyes slowly lower, lids coming to a close

For the millionth time I remind myself, this is what I chose

With my windows sealed tight, reality wears thin

My dreams fade into light, at first sight

Green and purple and blue and gold

And in my arms it’s you that I hold

We laugh and catch up, it feels like old times

But even in my dreams, you have a streak in your eyes

That streak is what scared me for all of those years

And that’s all I need to keep the door closed

For the millionth time I remind myself, this is what I chose