Look to my right
Headlights
Too close
Too fast
"No"

Eyes shut
I am spinning
And so many sounds
I don't remember
And then
My name, yelled
"Are you okay?"
"No"

Glass in palms
The crawl to safety
leaving me ******
And I am
in your arms
And I feel
Everything
"Are you okay?"
"I don't know"

And then
Sitting down
Touching
Cringing
My head
My thigh
My chest
My back
My arm
"Are you okay?"
"I don't know"

Walking
Stopping
Just to breathe
My hand is warm
In yours
"Are you okay?"

Porch light
Desperate search
Found keys
Dogs barking
Your lips
On mine
I stop
"Are you okay?"
I feel
Everything

Cold
White
Ambulance
But not mine
You're fine
Take this
Take those too
Cold showers
No exercise
"Are you okay?"
Good.
Go home"

And later
At night
Awake
I finally answer

"No"