coming off my ****** high
veins pulsing, head sweating, body shaking
always thinking it would never be me
always thought I took my own advice
if I could pierce my skin with the tainted needle but just one more time

I am ruined
thoughts of my drug ferociously circle my ****** brain
morning, afternoon, night
an unbelievable fight that I am winning

my demons pull me back every once in a while
and I wish I could dip my feet in
but the water is much too shallow
and the surrounding air laughs

only the flowers know