I want to scream at you until you apologise, then hug you and kiss your face. Make sweet trembling love to you in the faded moonlight. Make you see the hollow hatred in my eyes. You always apologise, no matter if you've done wrong or not. Because you so often do wrong sometimes you donβt see the difference.
Who influenced you? You live in such a big house yet still you steal kerosene and sell it to romani gypsies with long socks and wives the same age as you. You are so easy to find infatutation in. My drunken words were thrown at you and you accepted them, sober.
Inside I felt this shred of hope germinate, but as quickly as it came up it died. Some girl I barely know loves you more. She cried over you while I never have. Despite having wanted you so long I cannot find enough love in me. But oh, how I long to make you apologise to me.