when i was younger i
wanted to be like you

but now i want to just
go back to being myself
everything was perfect
before i brainwashed myself
to thinking you were

i did the things you did
i said the things you said
i trashed the core of my being
to fill myself with you
and now that's left me empty
feeling like trash
feeling used up

i feel like the color gray
i don't know who i am anymore
i can't trust what you say
i slowly get better day by
day i ignore the dismay
and fill myself up with
sunshine so that i am happy

with my life in a strange way.