I don't hate christmas
I don't want people confused
But when this time of year
Feels so bitter sweet
When it brings up
so many hard memories
How do I show you I don't hate christmas
When my cheeks are tear soaked
When I'm still trapped in a room
With my father's fist going in the drywall
Feeling the way it vibrated next to my face while he screamed
Look what you make me do
Like I'm the reason
he never controlled himself
I promise I don't hate christmas
But I can tell you it's been hard not to