Talking to myself Just talking to myself Debating the pros and cons Within my own head Keeping myself amused In my own bed By talking to myself Within my own head Duality exists As two thoughts in my head The good and the bad Trying to gain control In my stupid head As thoughts do patrol Opposing thoughts in my head As I talk to myself in my bed
“Jouska” is a Polish word that refers to a hypothetical conversation that someone compulsively plays out in their head. It can be a cathartic dialogue, a devastating comeback, or a crisp analysis. Jouska can generate emotion, which can lead to a corresponding physical reaction. It can serve as a psychological batting cage where someone can connect more deeply with people than in everyday life.
The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows is a compendium of new words for emotions. Its mission is to shine a light on the fundamental strangeness of being a human being—all the aches, demons, vibes, joys, and urges that are humming in the background of everyday life.
The compiler of the Dictionary is John Koenig a video maker, voice actor, graphic designer, and writer. Born in Idaho and raised in Geneva, Switzerland, he created The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows in 2009, first as a blog before expanding the project to YouTube. He lives in Minneapolis with his wife and daughter.