Nov 15
EXULANSIS
What’s the point of talking
When you are not my words even understanding
So I just walk away from myself
For I am alien to yourself
Are you not understanding
Or feigning a lack of understanding
Maybe you hate me or envy me
But I only love thee
When that love is not understood
A state of Exulansis, most misunderstood
I then do enter
Not because I want to be attention’s centre
But because you cannot me decipher
So here I feel like a mere cipher
And drift away forever
Your pity, I don’t seek ever
My mind is now faraway
With you all it can never stay
What’s the point of talking
When you are not my words even understanding
So I just walk away from myself
For I am alien to yourself
Are you not understanding
Or feigning a lack of understanding
Maybe you hate me or envy me
But I only love thee
When that love is not understood
A state of Exulansis, most misunderstood
I then do enter
Not because I want to be attention’s centre
But because you cannot me decipher
So here I feel like a mere cipher
And drift away forever
Your pity, I don’t seek ever
My mind is now faraway
With you all it can never stay
"Exulansis" refers to the tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it whether through envy, pity, or simple foreignness–which allows it to drift away from the rest of your life story until the memory itself feels out of place, almost mythical, wandering restlessly in the fog
The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows is a compendium of new words for emotions. Its mission is to shine a light on the fundamental strangeness of being a human being—all the aches, demons, vibes, joys, and urges that are humming in the background of everyday life.
The compiler of the Dictionary is John Koenig a video maker, voice actor, graphic designer, and writer. Born in Idaho and raised in Geneva, Switzerland, he created The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows in 2009, first as a blog before expanding the project to YouTube. He lives in Minneapolis with his wife and daughter.
The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows is a compendium of new words for emotions. Its mission is to shine a light on the fundamental strangeness of being a human being—all the aches, demons, vibes, joys, and urges that are humming in the background of everyday life.
The compiler of the Dictionary is John Koenig a video maker, voice actor, graphic designer, and writer. Born in Idaho and raised in Geneva, Switzerland, he created The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows in 2009, first as a blog before expanding the project to YouTube. He lives in Minneapolis with his wife and daughter.
