As I lie, permitting night’s death to envelop me
I ponder past loves
What uncertain decisions were reached
That enlarged distances between us

Did I allow doubts to seep from crevices
Did I imagine dreadful entanglement
Would I be foregoing greater pleasures
Did I ignore growth potentials

We struggle in random environs
We ruminate over every serious encounter
We must learn to relax our parameters
Allow events to accumulate before judgment