everyday i find that i care a little less
and then a little less
undeterred by your presence in any capacity
no longer gnawed by the stress

my hair hasn't grayed or fallen from my scalp
i walk the stairs just fine
started taking the long way home
and now devour the sunlight creeping through my blinds

life has been quiet and quite slighted
but its never been so vivid
i come from a sunken place
so i can deeply appreciate the transition

from shame to sincere vulnerability
comforted by and proud of the person i've become
you always made me feel too soft
but that sensitivity is what'll keep me young

while you fade and scratch at the walls
thinking till you're sick of a second chance that will never come
wasted your best years on lust and cheaper outcomes
your investments falter leaving you with nothing and no one

i'dve cried for you
but that intensity has degraded
i just might've laughed too
and yet that rage dissipated

instead i just keep doing
what i was already doing
feeling better everyday
and now your updates just amuse me