The other day, I accidentally spilled moonlight on the shadows where you used to sleep. I almost cleaned it up until I realized it didn’t matter anymore.
I told the clouds they were not welcome to shed tears over your side of the bed, that the rain had to drown me too.
I asked the sunset if it ever missed the sun, if vermillion meant farewell, if the dusky purples hurt when they were pressed, if the coming darkness felt as natural and as effortless as it looked.
And when the night finally fell in black oblivion I found the light you left in the corners of the room, under the pillow, in the spaces between my fingers. I found it everywhere in the darkness and nowhere in the daylight and I hate you for that –
Which is why I started making room for the moon in my bed even though he bleaches the sheets. And I let the clouds lay down their burden gently, gently over your pillow in place of my own. I stopped asking the sunset questions that I couldn’t answer and started digging my hands into the gracefulness of the sky and the ocean and everything in between.