i easily fell out of love with love when everything was less than beautiful

fell out of love with using words like "beautiful" since i was too weak for them

fell out of love with the way the sun seemed to skate across the sky in its usual routine

fell out of love with the adrenaline of life

fell out of love with loving myself

happened a while ago, i just didn't pay it any amount of attention until everything became harder

i fell in love with my pessimism instead, because it was "always better to keep your expectations low and either have it go as planned or be pleasantly surprised"

fell in love with letting my thoughts and emotions rot into my mattress until i had no place to rest

fell in love with curling so far into myself that people forgot what i looked like

fell in love with the fact that nobody could remember what i looked like

its easy to disappear when the bad memories take over the good

but life became easier when i found a reason to fall back in love with everything i fell out of love with

it was easier that i picked up your neologism that you made up on the spot just to see me laugh

easier that i started to see the colors of the setting sun being projected onto the sky again

easier that i started using stronger adjectives to describe the simplicities we came across

easier that i feel stronger by your side so that i could have the ***** to say i'm falling in love all over again

everything became easy