That numbing feeling
scrolling
through Facebook,
but it took that
to make me relax
oh
and a bottle of wine.

Then I listened to
my heartbeat
to check that it
was still there,

work?
jeez it was tough today
no time to play
it was nose to the wheel
and I wondered
quite idly
what the **** am I doing this for?

Routine?
I need it
it feeds me,
She tries to lead me astray
and I say
not tonight darling
but then it is morning
and I have a smile on my face.