the pendulum swings I hit the height of it all and then that pause the apex of it all THIS IS THE EVERYTHING so it seems just in that pause everything else fades blinded by emotion deaf by thoughts and then something moves a shift a cosmic slap everything shatters and light breaks through and the colors flood in wrapping themselves around you as you fall back down and slowly every so slowly you feel balanced again you laugh how ridiculous that ourburst was! how important it had seemed! but the laugh stops short because the shift is still happening you are still moving and you groan because you know that the pendulum is still swinging.