Last night I had a dream that I was finally free,
Free from the burdens, the anxiety, the heartbreaks that changed the person
I now try to burn endlessly in flames.
For a moment, I felt like me,
Whoever that may be,
I felt like someone who is still very much
A stranger to me, and the decisions I’ve made
Maybe this version of conscious I was experiencing
Just hadn’t gone through life fully,
So he was only showing me moments
Of when I’d forgotten I was happy
Either way, I felt a little bit of peace
Inside of this R.E.M sleep,
A feeling I hadn’t felt since I was 17,
Specially, When I was falling deeper and deeper in love with you
Under swaying blue cypress trees
I felt complete…
So, when you left, and I awoken from my dream,
I couldn’t help but to ask everyone around me,
Why? Why would you let this happen to me?
They explained that in order to feel happy,
You must first feel pain, and within that pain, hides the seed of peace,
And once you plant that seed
And nurture it
Watering it, giving light to its body
You begin bloom into the version of yourself
You always dreamt to be…

M.H. John