It's still shocking
How after all that
I've over come
I can still find myself back
In the same place i started.
It's surprising,
How i thought
That after all I went through
I'd learn from my mistakes,
Or so you'd think.

Here I am,
Sitting on the foot of my bed,
Holding the gun in may hands
Contemplating life.

I was sure i had it all
figured out this time.
I was certain that
I had it all right.
This time,
There was no room
For mistakes.
This time,
I'm sure
My plan
Would follow through.


Bang,
The gun goes off,
The problem had been solved,
I would no longer
Be a mistake.
I would no longer
Trouble you with my presence.
I would no longer hurt you.